i don't know

1. Where does time go? Because I really don't know.
2. Why did I get the house with the dryer, working stove, freezer, hot shower, and warm bed? I really really don't know.
3. Why in the world do they give us too much homework (that they don't think we'll ever really finish, but we do anyway?) I really really really don't know.
4. why do i crave chocolate all the stinking time? I really honestly don't know, considering I am getting my fill of real, live, fresh, sweet mangoes here. Mmmmm...
5. ya da ya da ya da.

But you know what....I am okay with not knowing.

So instead, here are some things I do know.
1. In the words of Jen, I am a perriferica snob. That's just all there is too it. (Long story short we have two options in getting from ILE...Take the 30 minute, 150 colones bus to San Jo, and then take the 1 hour, 195 colones bus home. -OR- take the 40 minute, 250 colones perriferica to Guadalupe, and the 20 minute, 195 colones bus home. Spend a 100 colones more (ie 20 cents) and get home 1/2 an hour earlier, and avoid the stinking San Jo traffic. heck yes. Plus...the people on the perri are a little nicer, a little softer, in comparison to the cat calling, triple tounge peirced, creepers who ride the bus to San Jo). So I will admit to my snobbines. And I am okay with that too.
2. I also know that not a day goes by that I don't see AT LEAST one car wreck (ususally its more like 5), LA drivers are REDICULOUS! I mean, it's really unbelievable. Sometimes I honestly feel like I am going to die. Kinda scary, and thrilling all the same.
3. I have sucumb to a few guilty pleasures while I've been here: the beach, coffee, not doing my hair.
4. I am lazy. To my ladies in the nude (ie my sophomore suite) - we can all agree that I was probably the cleanest one of you all that year. I mean lets be honest - i took a shower almost everyday, and you all....well at least you tried to brush you hair. But see the thing is, I've learned that sometimes there are just things that are more valuable than showers. For instance, sleeping, or finishing that paper before you are late to class, or sleeping, or just the fact that you can put your hair back up into the ponytail and not worry about it. So you should be proud of me. To my family - don't worry, I shower at least everyother day. BUT I make no promises for when I'm in Nicaragua. The main point being that I probably won't have access to a shower, much less plumbing for that matter.
5. I really love the fact that mi mama does my laundry for me. It's amazing
6. I judge people a lot. which i hate about myself
7. There once was this boy. Yesterday I DID NOT LIKE HIM (creeper, annyoing, rude, etc, etc, etc)...and then he spilled his guts and cried and loved my cookies. Today I appreciate him. Tomorrow, who knows tal vez I'll like him.
8. God makes me feel like an idiot, prooves me wrong - and then at the same time makes me crack up.
9. I hate cancer. (way way too many people are affected by it)
10. Life is not fair, but if it was, we would all be idiots anyways.


Last night Jen spent the night, and we both slept in my twin sized bed. It was great and comfy, which is a good thing, since when my mom gets here she's gonna have to share my bed with me. We had a let it all out night. It was fabulous. We were absolutely gringos - it was rediculous. We went and bought ingredients to make cookies. We ate McDonalds for dinner (ewww, i don't even like mcdonalds...what the heck was I thinking). We bought popcorn, chips, and chocolate...and ate a lot of it, while watching step up. We slept in, then made cookies, and ditched our homework (If I didn't have a stupid test today, we really would have skipped class). But we just needed a day of junk, a day of whatever. And I think it helped.I had a break down yesterday. i'm pretty sure it was just everything piling, piling, piling. But I had a good cry and now I'm good.

I'm ready for a little beach this weekend before I have to start a ton of stinking homework for next week. I decided that I'm going to the beach. I should do homework, yes. But you know what? I AM IN COSTA RICA. enough said.

My heart hurts though. Some of you know - some not. But Ryan Holley's dad found out that he had cancer just weeks before we left for the christmas break, and has been battleing and it's quickley taken him, Ryan is on a study program in LA and has been flying back and forth btw there and home to see his dad. On Monday his dad died. It's just really not fair. Ryan is the most uplifting, encouraging, spiritual guy that I know, I admire him in so many ways. And nowing his pain hurts my heart. I also just discovered that one of the girls on our trip, her mom just passed away from cancer like 5 weeks before coming on the trip. It just frusterates me, and angers me, and I don't know what to do with it. The only way I can put it, is that it's not fair. But like I said, if life were fair we'd all be idiots anyways.

Anyways - on a happier note - I honestly, absoluetly love Costa Rica. No words to say that with enough passion. And God knew what he was doing when he stuck me with the host family I'm with. The other night my brother spilled his guts to me, shared his life story - wowzers. My mom is so understanding, and she just lifts me up. And God knew so much that I needed to be here THIS semester. The people in my group are mroe amazing that I could explain. And I'm already dreading the day I have to part with them. That is also not fair. But like I said, idiots.

So I don't know a lot of things, but what I do know is that God is good, all the time. And all the time, God is good.